Feeling Like I've Lost Something Precious

Honestly, I'm not really sure what's missing in my life.

"Time" probably?


I know this may sounds strange for a young folk like me, but whenever I encounter some people who are really talented&diligent, I can't help thinking that I seemed to waste so much time in my adolescence cramming stuffs, which were needed to get me here(as a college student) but now completely useless. For instance, I memorized the rules for composing ancient Chinese poetry in 8th grade, but I've never been in the mood to appreciate the beauty of any poem. Don't get me wrong, I love reading, except those advocating doctrinaire dogmas, and that whole thing written in a dead-elusive ancient language just make it worse.

I think I'll definitely do a better job at what I'm interested in now if I had the time to explore and learn freely when I was a teenager: playing keyboard, dancing, these are things I kind of giving up(due to lack of time), and programming, which I'm pretty good at, but hasn't reached mastery.
As the time passed by, I found that it's getting harder and harder for me to spend time on things I really want to. Pretty sad huh?